Need to Feel.

Ok. So. I'm a pretty unemotional person. If I ever do become emotional, I cover my feelings up and never, never talk about them for fear that someone would feel sorry for me. Yes, yes, I know that this is not psychologically healthy and that I should talk about my "feelings," but I just don't like to do that. Maybe it's some masculinity complex or something. Who knows?

Anyway, the point of this blog post is that I'm admitting that I had my feelings hurt by someone I consider like a brother to me (I still do) and it's been eating at me for a while. I mean, I will definitely never talk to this brother about the hurt because it'd be inappropriate, but it's really there. I just feel really slighted, and it hurts. It'd kind of like a dull pain though. Not like the sharp pain of being "friend dumped," which I also experienced last year. No, this is more like a dull nagging pain that just bores a pinhole into your heart.

This probably doesn't make sense to most of you, but this post was mainly just for me to get something out.

Ciao.